so sick... couldnt sleep last night... up from 4 am-6. no school for me. i kept kicking the wall by my bed and it made a loud noise and made me even more awake. i watched Maury at 4 and Fear Factor at 5. maury was kinda disturbing.. all about cheaters getting caught and murderers on the run and guys setting up cameras to spy on their gf's and film them having sex and selling the tapes... and one was a gang rape and it was creepy. i called ryan at like 4:45 to make sure he was a good boy. lol i think i was delirious. im going to the dr. in a few minutes. i hope i dont have strep throat or anything like that. i need some antibiotics though. lol the guy is probably gonna tell me that i just have a really bad cold and he cant do anything. that would be just my luck. i wish it was summer. school makes me ill... all those germy people. ugggghhhh i wish ryan was hear. i need comforting. lol im so uncomfortable. im gonna go. xoox